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Mother’s Day: He Loves Me! He Loves Me More!

Mother’s Day: He Loves Me! He Loves Me More!

I remember when we took Angel to get his two-month old shots. I remember standing in his pediatrician’s tiny office as she brought the injection needle near his little brown thigh. I remember holding my breath. Poor Angel! He had no idea what was coming. He was the true picture of innocence. As the needle pierced Angel’s skin, he did not cry right away but within a few seconds he let out a wail that I will never forget. I remember how my heart grew heavy as tears streamed down my face. I remember thinking that this is what it feels like to love someone else unconditionally. At that moment, I felt my son’s pain.

I am sharing this story to let you know that I love my son unconditionally. I love him and yet I have spent Mother’s Day after Mother’s Day feeling sorry for myself. There have been no unprompted Happy Mother’s Day greetings from Angel. There have been no cards and pictures that he made without help.

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This Mother’s Day, I will make a conscious effort to adjust how I think. I will not feel sorry for myself this year. I will not spend the day wallowing in self pity. I will not spend the day comparing Angel to typical kids his age who can make cards and presents and wish their mothers Happy Mother’s Day!

I will focus on the fact that my son loves me— unconditionally.

When Angel wraps his little arms around my neck and says, “Hug? Hug? Awwwww.” I know that he loves me. When he smothers my cheeks with kisses, and says “muah,” I know he adores me.

Angel has taught me to pay closer attention to the nonverbal ways of expressing love, the “action” ways. You know, the ways that go beyond symbolism and words.

I admit that I am a work in progress. However, part of accepting my son and everything that comes with his autism diagnosis is realizing that he is who he is and I have to adapt.

He may not understand Mother’s Day and what it means but I will take meaning from the ways he show­­s love toward me every day.

Happy Mother’s Day! to all the wonderful mothers and grandmothers! You are a true blessing. Hope you have a wonderful and blessed day!

What does Mother’s Day mean to you? Please share your thoughts in the comments below.

Sincerely,

Miz Kp

 

 

Miz Kp
Written by Miz Kp

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    “What does Mother’s Day mean to you?” This is the question posed after this blog entry. I think the essence of the feeling is captured by the very content of this post. But to add on, I would say Mother’s Day is a day to celebrate the special relationship termed as mother-child by which children, both young and old, pay homage and show appreciate for the love, affection and help to the person holding that motherly role. You are a great example of a mother, let alone a human being. The giving and selflessness…..words to describe them? I am sure they exist, but they are too big for this screen. Happy Mother’s day to all the Moms reading this right now.

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    May 12, 2013

    I could have written this post. Every bit of it resonates with me. Thank you for sharing!

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      May 13, 2013

      You are welcome. It is always good to know when someone else gets it.

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    May 12, 2013

    I couldnt be a Dad without Angel’s Mom being a Mom. Happy Mommy’s Day to a gr8 mom and also to all moms of our special needs children!

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    May 13, 2013

    I hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day

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    May 14, 2013

    I loved reading this! It IS a journey of acceptance and it doesn’t happen overnight. and I do agree with you, non verbal communication speaks volumes! My oldest, who is quite vocal is NOT lovey dovey while my non verbal youngest is very affectionate. When the older one sees my reaction at the little one hugging me, he quickly gets up and dryly hugs me too, lol. So, by just being himself, the little one is teaching the older one!

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      May 15, 2013

      That is great, Nellie. Thank you.

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    May 15, 2013

    Aw, Miz Kp, you’ve written such a touching post here. My favorite sentence from this post has got to be: “Angel has taught me to pay closer attention to the nonverbal ways of expressing love, the “action” ways. You know, the ways that go beyond symbolism and words.” I think that is so important for all of us to do. Thank you for the reminder. I am wishing you a very Happy Belated Mother’s Day. Angel is so blessed to have you and you to have him.

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      May 15, 2013

      Thank you. Hope you had a great Mother’s Day!

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